Stood still.
Paint abandon canvas,
& my brush can’t seem to start again from scratch.
As I watched everything unravel,
Why should I even try to stop the collapse..
I won’t.
A little more drops to fill my cup.
Give me a cup & I'll fill it for you.
Had it been different.
The depths of a man’s soul cannot be measured,
In a manor of meters & fathoms.
Had it only been a different night, a different place. A different kind of man passing by the threshold of that innocent pub. The events that transpired there, would never have even begun to be grasped by the feat.
I would only ask if anyone outside that place, had a clue when the exclamations of mirth became the desperate screams of the helpless.
Compelling, Compel me.
The night sky feel as though it has never been darker.
With the fleeting hope of vengeance compelling me, I will attempt to recollect myself & resume the chase.. But what is it that I am chasing, am I really chasing anything at all?
Or am I simply drowning myself in revenge to avoid the horrifying truth?
Of all.
I wouldn’t say I’m smart. Just street-wise. Everyone need to be wise in this century.
But then I think too much..
How long was that?
My wordpress, my dairy again.
God! Its been half a year since I touch on blogging again? Hahaha.
I just forgotten that I’ve a blog somehow. Lol. Half a year, nothing really happen.. Okkkaaayyy, maybe a little.. Hmm.. Can I say a quite a lot? LOL! Sorry, I always had a fussy mind. :3
Won’t be typing a ‘composition’ today. Maybe tomorrow, If I have the time.
P.S : I’M FINALLY 18!! Just started my enrolment in BBDC! I’ve been waiting for this day so badly! Hahaha!
Its just simply that.
Its been a while.. Of course we know that. Okay, maybe its been a long while. Lol.
Life’s starting to get boring, same old cycle of what we do over the week. <<Have I said this before? Lol.
Holidays start at 18 June, FOR HIGHER NITEC. It all last for 1 month, why does it matters anyway? Joke.
I feel like getting a CCA. The thing is my campus doesn't have much to choose from & all of them don't even interest me. Having a CCA may clash my timing with part-timing too. That sucks so much.
Talking about part-timing. Every start of a holiday, definitely I'll be searching for a job & everytime, a different one. I don't stay long in the same part-time job, I do not know why either.. perhaps is that I will get bored & sick of having doing the same work over & over again. When will I have a stable one? Hah.
Group of Brothers.. Will the brotherhood last for long? I wonder.
“It sure gets lonely sometimes. Getting used to it is everybody’s natural choice.”
Thinkable thoughts
What can teens do nowadays uh? Club? Smoke? Drink? Heh, I only do 2 of those. I can just add 2 more, Study & Sleep. Fcuking same cycle over & over again. I guess I’m almost sick of life. It sucks..
So what if I miss you badly, you wouldn’t care.
So what if I say I like you back, you wouldn’t care.
So what if I say I’m coming back for you, you wouldn’t care too.
I don’t even know why I’m in love with you..
Your attitude sucks, but I like the way you are, even though some words from you are harsh.
“Sometimes I wanted to say I had enough.. But thinking of being together with you, its worth the while. The thing is, will it even happen?”
I fret as much..
Almost a week since school reopens. My timetable is totally different from before, of course uh, learning different module. Its all whole new start.. For my brain. Can I upgrade my Brain-Access Memory(BAM)? I think its gonna crash everything I’m learning right now. Lol!
Stricter then before.. Or is it just the teachers? Fcuk. Don’t care, I’m still gonna grow my long hair. :p
Joker emerge for our class.. Maybe its a whole new entertainment for the class, hahaha! How bad can our group be?
I don’t strike to impress, what I do is what I am.. But then, wrong words coming out may ruin this relation. Ruined many, I don’t wish to continue making more. The whole relation may just “poof, it became cocoa crunch!” Jeopardized! Fret as much it would happen. I’m scared for some reason, I don’t wanna lose this. Gradually.. It became misses when I don’t get to see you. 
“If I’m the writer of my life, I would erase all those mistake I made throughout my 17 years. Perhaps I could have a fortunate life.”
Smooth? Not for me..
Things just doesn’t appeared as what we wanted it to be. Unfair isn’t it? But always there something, god will put it fair to you. Not the thing you wanted of course, just useful in other ways.
That’s what I am; rough-speaker, always joke using a nail over peoples’ head, untalented guy. You can say me unkind too. Cause that’s what I am in the first place!!
I still have my own life, my own say. No one can stop anyone from having a their “say” but people can avoid hearing what’s your “say”. Fuck yourself if you don’t understand.
Life… Is going back to have fun after school starts! 😀
“None is good for me. I might as well just play along with fate”
Always missing something.
Typically free to blog, of course eh. I can do it anytime I wanted to. Hah.
Alright, 2 more weeks before school starts. Seriously don’t think I’ll have the interest in studying after school reopen, that goes to my classmates too.
At the moment, I try to earn as much money as I can. As long as I don’t fret about it when I’m in the school(nonsense). Lol. Lots of things I wanna buy, even though I got a ear piece which I like it a lot. I still hasn’t got myself a new high cut shoe! Puma brand, hope it doesn’t go extinct.
Back to the topic. Is just that every day or time I wake up, lots of thoughts flow through my mind. Felt that something is really missing from it or maybe in my life. I can’t seems to find it though. Sometimes I feel like, tomorrow’s the end of the world or something. I do not know, it felt so.. Complicated. Like I just came back from Matrix. Lol!
In it, I just hope that I can find it..
“Soon, everything will come smooth”
It’s tiger… err… just the date.
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A little more drops to fill my cup. 